Namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi,
Di ka pa rin bumibili
Nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay,
Pero ni sulat, ni tawag wala
Been meaning to write for a while. And I have. Just that I couldn't post what I have so far. Or maybe I'm just too frigging lazy to copy the ones I have in my damn laptop.
I told a friend that I have a lot on my plate as of late. Funny how things are. Me? Staying at home, doing absolutely nothing, having a load to take care of? Well, yeah. I have to start with fixing myself right? I'm not totally fixed but, there's a bunch'a stuff in my life I find more enjoyable at the moment. Laughing freely doesn't come as often as well, now. And for that, I have Keiron Matthew Sycor Trevett to thank. Thanks man, for opening my eyes. I knew I could count on you. At all freaking times. Thank you, thank you.
Dumbest Move of the Century Award goes to........ ME! Just had to say that. I let go of something far more valuable than my batch ring can ever be eight years ago. I shouldn't have acted like a total moron. I should have done this, I should have done that. Well, boo-hoo. Too late, amigo. What I can do now is prolly get my ass off this chair, pack my things, look for a job "there" and have a nice get-together with....... KB. Oh man... Thinking about what happened between us during college makes me want to drive a thousand nails into my brain. I mean, seriously. KB, KB, KB... A keeper. Uber moronic of me to let that special connection go. And for what? Air. What an idiot.
So I'm writing two novels at once, see? One of CAT Guys and the other, my The L Word fanfic. And all I can think about is how stupid I was to effing do what my characters always seem to do in most chapters.
Oh, and I don't think of He-Who-Can't-Be-Named any longer. He only pops up when he forcefully inserts his name in my SMS inbox. And when I'm amazed at myself for not thinking about him - say what?
Did have my fun singing songs with a coupl'a friends earlier. I was a virgin. Haven't tried videoke before. Big deal. Got over it and am going for a second round maybe later this week, if time permits. Good way to get those bad vibes out of my system. Don't know howta sing well without my guitar backing me up but what the hell. Might as well. Punched in 9 songs, should have been 10 if it weren't for whatever error that was. I have another set in my phone for the next visit.
Torpe. AMA used to dedicate that song to me way back in high school. Rightfully so. Not proud of it but what can I do? It was true. Still is. Haven't gotten over the fear of saying something wrong or doing something stupid or whatnot. Beats me how some folks can walk up to the ones they admire and just be themselves. I was always the shy one, the timid one, the awkward one. God help me. I hate this.
And so... Hello World! It's me, 17 again.
- After more than a decade, things haven't changed much.
Been meaning to write for a while. And I have. Just that I couldn't post what I have so far. Or maybe I'm just too frigging lazy to copy the ones I have in my damn laptop.
I told a friend that I have a lot on my plate as of late. Funny how things are. Me? Staying at home, doing absolutely nothing, having a load to take care of? Well, yeah. I have to start with fixing myself right? I'm not totally fixed but, there's a bunch'a stuff in my life I find more enjoyable at the moment. Laughing freely doesn't come as often as well, now. And for that, I have Keiron Matthew Sycor Trevett to thank. Thanks man, for opening my eyes. I knew I could count on you. At all freaking times. Thank you, thank you.
Dumbest Move of the Century Award goes to........ ME! Just had to say that. I let go of something far more valuable than my batch ring can ever be eight years ago. I shouldn't have acted like a total moron. I should have done this, I should have done that. Well, boo-hoo. Too late, amigo. What I can do now is prolly get my ass off this chair, pack my things, look for a job "there" and have a nice get-together with....... KB. Oh man... Thinking about what happened between us during college makes me want to drive a thousand nails into my brain. I mean, seriously. KB, KB, KB... A keeper. Uber moronic of me to let that special connection go. And for what? Air. What an idiot.
So I'm writing two novels at once, see? One of CAT Guys and the other, my The L Word fanfic. And all I can think about is how stupid I was to effing do what my characters always seem to do in most chapters.
Oh, and I don't think of He-Who-Can't-Be-Named any longer. He only pops up when he forcefully inserts his name in my SMS inbox. And when I'm amazed at myself for not thinking about him - say what?
Did have my fun singing songs with a coupl'a friends earlier. I was a virgin. Haven't tried videoke before. Big deal. Got over it and am going for a second round maybe later this week, if time permits. Good way to get those bad vibes out of my system. Don't know howta sing well without my guitar backing me up but what the hell. Might as well. Punched in 9 songs, should have been 10 if it weren't for whatever error that was. I have another set in my phone for the next visit.
Torpe. AMA used to dedicate that song to me way back in high school. Rightfully so. Not proud of it but what can I do? It was true. Still is. Haven't gotten over the fear of saying something wrong or doing something stupid or whatnot. Beats me how some folks can walk up to the ones they admire and just be themselves. I was always the shy one, the timid one, the awkward one. God help me. I hate this.
And so... Hello World! It's me, 17 again.
You like KARAOKE NOW?!? If you weren't in-healing I would have driven a stake through your heart for saying you like karaoke. You must still be depressed to say something like that. ^_^
ReplyDeleteI told you that you needed to scream. And I guess karaoke is a safe alternative since you are in the metro.
What are your plans? I'll see you this weekend. We need to talk to Makis about her photo thingy. I am so not winging something like that. T_T,
Anyway. Give it time. You will grow up eventually.
No, you are not 17 again. You never really grew up. You my friend have a "lives in the past" personality which is the opposite of my "let the past pass by and now is what's important". The only problem with both syndromes is that none of them plans or looks towards the future.And that is never good. Fix your labels and categories. ^_^ mshado marami ahaha. (look who's talking noh?)
Good luck. And behave.
I didn't say I like karaoke. Haha. It was just one way of killing time, really. Have to try it at least once in this lifetime eh? Kaya there. It was okay naman. I didn't really sing that much. Most of the time, I just listened to it and sat, spaced out. Bleh. Anyway...
ReplyDeleteYeah. I haven't heard anything from Makis. Grabe. Di ko alam kung kaya kong gampanan ang pagiging "Jay Manuel" sa shoot na yon... Haha. We really need to plan things well. Hirap ang sked eh.
Me? Batangas pero malapit na rin siguro lumipat ulet dyan. I'm just weighing my options pa when it comes to job offers. Haha. Ingat at salamat! :)